I fly a lot. Actually that’s an understatement. To put it in perspective, I’ve flown 54,000 miles since January 1. Of this year. In all of the time I’ve been in the air/airport, I’ve seen my share of delays, turbulence, and touchy landings.
Maybe it’s the fatalist attitude one must have when they choose to go into burning buildings for fun, but I’ve never really worried about anything ever happening to me on an airplane (not even when I watched an engine spontaneously combust from my window seat while we were still at the gate). Or anywhere at all, for that matter. Until tonight.
As I’m sure many of you have heard, the East Coast is experiencing yet another weather phenomenon. Growing up in Eastern Washington State, 40-50mph winds don’t really phase me. Spending the past two years in Seattle, driving rain doesn’t give me pause either. However, I’ve never had both of those lovely weather events happen at the same time that I (and about 140 other souls) was trying to land in an Airbus A-320 at Dulles airport.
Normally, my favorite part of sitting in the window seat is watching takeoffs and landings. Maybe it’s my geeky side, but I like to play a game and approximate the time it takes between when I first see runway pavement to the first bump of wheels down. Tonight, as we made a very wobbly descent through the rain-soaked blackness, all I could think was “I don’t think so, I don’t think so!”….and then we rose back up into the night…..”Whew! I didn’t think so!”
As we circled the airport for a second try at runway 1R(ight), I actually contemplated my existence. What if? Have I accomplished all I’m meant to accomplish? Before I could truly answer that question for myself, my thoughts turned to the 33 lives that were lost today at Virginia Tech. Thoughts of those that were students, lives that were cut short before they could start on the journey of adulthood. Thoughts of those that were professors, dedicated to shape those young minds for years to come. All so senseless.
As we landed on that second try and cheers went up from the cabin, I was grateful. Grateful that I could, if nothing else, send my thoughts and prayers to the family and friends that lost a loved one today. And grateful that I could spend another day getting one step closer to completing my own journey.